2014- September

In between thoughts of my mother's perfect penmanship and my sister's growing belly...I dreamt we were trapped underground in tunnels of dirt and we survived on kisses, mouths feeding air and moisture

And Markus says to me outside the bar on the street after we lock up our bikes, "I wish you smoked." I retort, "I wish you didn't." Dating as an adult and our impossible colliding lifestyles, creating and destroying…a collision of evolving moments in time. Raging peaks and fertile valleys. The mountain vs. no mountain. :)

Sept. 11 Vancouver arrival. 86, 269 kms.

2014-August

Nelson: 85,540 kms, August 29. The curve of the road determines our journey…We are free and serendipity is our ally. The hour glass on Baker. grocery list: steaks and corn cobs.

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August 28, New Denver: 85,210 kms

"But mountains are full of surprises. Everytime one turns, rises or falls, there is a new splurge of glory, a new peak, its snowy crown dancing in the sun, a new valley green and fruitful…or bleak, deserted. In one valley there is thunder, in the next sunshine." -One man caravan

August 27: 85,100 kms

Day 2: 84,704 kms

First rule of Seymour Arm, don't talk about Seymour Arm. 

Spiralling upwards

Day 1: 84,250km

2014-07

july 19

It was the second piano I saw that day, a white one and nobody was sitting at it, so I stopped, took a picture of it, then sat down to play…people come by, some halted a moment, others sat and listened. That's when I saw Guy out of the corner of my eye. I stopped playing and he clapped. I got up to my bike and he stopped me and asked me about my piano playing…I said I didn't play piano. ;) He smiled and explained how he plays piano: There is a building and inside the building are 7 floors. In those 7 floors are bosses and workers and as long as they get along and speak to one another, you can make music. All words have syllables and syllables are connected to notes, so when the boss talks to the workers, the words are the notes that tell the workers what to do.

Hmm. Then he asked me what my most precious moment has been? I said the present moment, but he said that the present moment has already passed by. Ok. I said,"Now", but that still puts me in the past tense, because once I say "now", it is already gone. Then he explained to me that the answer should be "being". To 'be', puts the past and future away from you, so you only have the present moment. Nothing else matters. He said that he might not make it back to his car to drive home to see his wife tonight, but he has this moment of being alive, and not his past or his future means anything. If you're busy "living life", you are not alive…The most precious moment is to be alive. He got to me…This conversation started because I decided to sit at a white piano and tickle the ivories…It was a beautiful moment...

possessions are no good. they weigh you down and make you stay. put. 

july 2, 2014

thoughts are immediate in this quiet apartment. I hear Victor stir behind the hidden wall…, closing doors and turning locks. Deciding how to come to peace with a day such as this.

destruction all around me, breaking down and feeling lose, disappointment and regret…so many negative emotions

my face has become downturned and heart feels weak. i look forward into the curve. it's coming soon…some kind of release from the set jail…and the water heals…it gives me strength and clarity. the truth of "this too shall pass" becomes a thought that turns into reality. This passing wrinkle of time. I'll be so far from thinking about this day in a couple of days…apart from the drama, tension and angst. I leave it all behind in the quiet. Today, i contemplated. Avoiding eyes and attention. I'm ready to say goodbye and get on with my real life; where the business of the business isn't...

sitting in your green towel, sipping fireball and my smile returning. My thoughts turn to our travels and the life we will create together.